Back on-line...

Today is my first day "back" on the Internet after a couple years of working quietly in my studio, writing songs, preparing them for "The Beacon" and reflecting on a very rich and mysterious time in my life since the death of my mother in the spring of 2014. Things have changed a lot since then and I have done some serious searching and find that there is no end to the work of living.

My mother, Jane Byers Bierhorst, was a deep reservoir of wisdom in my life. She was tough, uncompromising, tender, funny, unafraid of her emotions, a brilliant graphic designer, a killer cook, magical gardener, and lover of my father for 50 years. She died as she lived, "economically" (as my Dad noted) and completely on her own terms, in her sunny back livingroom with my Dad near her side. She never gave up on me, always encouraged me to continue with music even when I felt desperate for a "normal" life and considered running away from my calling to get a "real" job. Thank god she practically shouted at me when I was in one of those moods - her impatience with the very idea of abandoning music would snap me right out of it and help me recommit to my life's work.

Today I am writing from my new apartment in what the folks around here call South Slope. My beautiful son is advising me, much like mom used to do - don't give up, keep going, get on YouTube. It's very refreshing and touching to hear him encourage me at a time when I am sometimes quite vulnerable and taking new risks. My marriage has ended and I am finding I am much stronger than I ever knew and am so grateful to my new basement studio where I can work as long as I like and return to the way I felt when I was ten and so sure about who I was. In an unexpected way, having my life turned upside down has been very rejuvenating. I truly feel like a kid again finally left alone with my muse.

3 comments

  • dexter

    dexter USA

    can not wait 4 da beackon

    can not wait 4 da beackon

  • Ellen Bierhorst

    Ellen Bierhorst Cincinnati

    You go girl! I am with you all the way. Chusti.

    You go girl! I am with you all the way. Chusti.

  • Connie Phillips

    Connie Phillips Hendersonville, TN

    I don't know exactly what to say...but I do know that I am very happy for you, this wonderful project dedicated to your Mom, whom I cared for very much and felt we had a special relationship with. She I am sure watching over you and feeling very proud! Lot's of love and luck as you travel on this new road!!

    I don't know exactly what to say...but I do know that I am very happy for you, this wonderful project dedicated to your Mom, whom I cared for very much and felt we had a special relationship with. She I am sure watching over you and feeling very proud! Lot's of love and luck as you travel on this new road!!

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